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       I was extremely lucky to have survived the debilitating adverse reactions I experienced from Prozac, an antidepressant drug I was prescribed by two psychiatrists--first in April of 1989, and again later in November of 1990.  The next year, I began dictating my "Prozac Tapes" to chronicle what had happened to me.  These tapes became the foundation for ZAPPED BY PROZAC.

     One of the primary and driving forces behind my indomitable will to survive has been my desire to write a book about what happened to me--how Prozac, the other psychiatric drugs I was given, the pharmaceutical companies that make these drugs, the FDA, and the psychiatrists and other medical doctors who negligently treated me, ruined my life and almost caused my death.  This combination literally stole my life, my identity and my very soul.  My career as a lawyer was ended, and I was plunged into a life of financial insecurity.  My ability to spend time with my children and grandchildren was substantially limited.  I was no longer able to participate in a number of activities I had enjoyed my whole life.  I was placed in an untenable health position, no longer able to tolerate a substantial number of therapeutic drugs.  I was relegated to a life of misery and frustration.

       As far back as 1993, I had the idea for this book.  As more time passed, I became less driven by resentment and more driven by a moral obligation to try to help people avoid a fate similar to mine by telling my story.  I wanted to expose the magnitude of the fraud touting the safety and efficacy of Prozac and other psychiatric drugs that has been perpetrated by Big Pharma (the pharmaceutical industry), the psychiatric profession, the FDA, and the medical profession in general.  I attempted many times over the years to accomplish the tasks necessary to start writing a book.  My mental capabilities had been so damaged that I was unable to do this. 

     Eventually, in late 2003, I was able to get a good start by transferring my original Prozac Tapes to my computer hard drive and onto CDs; and by transcribing abbreviated notes and quotations from the tapes.  Finally, in May of 2007, I felt that I was running out of time, and it was my moral obligation to write this book.  All of the books I was aware of that challenged the use of Prozac and other antidepressant drugs were authored by doctors or other health care professionals.  They seemed like intelligent people, but they had little or no adverse personal experiences with these drugs.  Their books were filled with too much psychobabble and medical mumbo jumbo.  I was not aware of any book written by a victim of antidepressant drugs.  I doubted that anybody else on the face of the earth had experienced what I had experienced and survived; or knew what I knew.  It became clear to me that writing a book was what I could do to help people.  I was the only person who could tell my story.  I had to play the hand I was dealt in life, and writing this book was how I was going to play it.  I had to fulfill my moral obligation.  That is why I wrote this book.

      To put everything in perspective, I am very aware my life and experiences don’t really amount to a hill of beans in the grand scheme of things.  Whatever suffering I have endured pales in comparison to the genocide and death occurring around the world on a daily basis.  Even as I wrote this book, my American compatriots were being killed and wounded every day in Iraq and Afghanistan.  My heart aches for them and their families and friends.  I am just not that important.  I know this.  However, the one small contribution I can still make to my fellow human beings is this book.  It tells a story that I believe is representative of thousands of other stories.

      What you will find in ZAPPED BY PROZAC is the story of a victim of antidepressant drugs and psychiatry whose life was turned into an electric odyssey through hell.  If you or someone you know have used Prozac or other antidepressant drugs and claim overall beneficial effects from them, then I am happy for you and wish you well.  You are among the lucky ones.  I was not so lucky.

A Free Ebook?! - Why On Earth Would I Do That?

    I did not start out with the intention of making ZAPPED BY PROZAC a free ebook available for downloading on the Internet.  I just wanted to write a book that told my story and exposed one of the great medical frauds of our time.  I hoped all along that I would eventually end up signing a modest book deal with a publisher.  I never even looked into it until I finished writing the first few drafts of the book.  I first had to fulfill my moral obligation.  I then jumped headlong into the literary business, where I discovered how difficult it was for an unpublished novice author like myself to even get a literary agency to represent me.  I bought books and studied many websites on the proper and accepted standards and methods expected of authors seeking to get published.  I drafted "query" letters and wrote a full "book proposal," even though my book was already written.  I faithfully used Jeff Herman's Guide to Book Publishers, Editors, & Literary Agents.  

     For a year and a half, I sent out dozens of queries to very carefully selected literary agents who indicated an interest in subjects and categories that would include my book.  I played their game.  What did it get me?  It got me no reply at all from about half of them, and a "thanks, but no thanks" reply from the other half.  I finally decided I was tired of it.  I was getting nowhere.  It did not help when I got no encouragement at all from some already published authors of books challenging the safety and efficacy of antidepressants and other psychiatric drugs.  I was even told outright that my chances of getting published were very remote.  My book was too controversial and took on forces that were too powerful.  Literary agents and publishers would steer clear of it.  It was not worth the risk.  I was an unknown, unpublished author with no "platform" to sell enough books to make good money for agents and publishers.  I came to the conclusion that all of this was probably true.  Moreover, no matter how hard I tried, I could not figure out how to successfully interject any teenage vampire and werewolf romances or boy wizards into my book.

     Even though I could certainly use some extra income, I have come to accept that I will probably not make money from a book deal.  Don't get me wrong--I would still be very amenable to a literary agent or publisher who made me an offer.  I would welcome some professional editing of my book.  I am sure it needs some.  I have done everything from A to Z, including my own editing and proofreading.  However, I have decided not to wait any longer.  I intend to fulfill my moral imperative.  The digital world has made that possible.  It came to me one night that a digital electronic "ebook," available for downloading from my own website, would give me access to people all over the world.  I could get my story out without a brick-and-mortar publisher.  I just would not make any money from it.  I can live with that.  

     However, when you go to my "Download Free Ebook" page, you will read in my Copyright Notice and Creative Commons License that I am expressly prohibiting the printing of my book. It is a PDF file, and is security protected to make printing unavailable on your Adobe Reader.  To you computer geniuses out there, please do not print any copies by figuring out a way to defeat the security protection.  Digital copies can be made and distributed without limitation.  In fact, I want you to do this.  I want you to link back to my website.  I want you to make digital copies available for downloading on your websites.  I want you to inform or send digital copies to all your email, Facebook, Twitter and YouTube friends.  Basically, I hope my ebook, in digital form only, is distributed all over the world.  Perhaps my website will eventually get recognized by Google's or Yahoo's search engines.  You see, there is a method to my apparent madness.  If I become "famous" enough, some publisher may conclude that I have created a viable "platform" to sell hardcover paper books.  Who knows, it might work.  If not, that is all right, because I will have succeeded in fulfilling my moral obligation to my fellow human beings.

No Connection Whatsoever To Scientology

     I am aware that Scientologists have publicly opposed psychiatry and the use of psychiatric drugs.  In fact, Scientology has become the scapegoat and whipping boy for Big Pharma's propaganda campaign to discredit all opposition to the use of antidepressant drugs as an extremist or cultist plot of some kind.  I want to make it absolutely clear that I am not and have never been a Scientologist, nor have I ever been associated in any way with the Church of Scientology or any of its so-called "front groups" like the Citizens' Commission on Human Rights (CCHR).  

This Website:

     I know that this website is quite rudimentary, to say the least.  Please don't judge it too harshly.  I am an older guy with a modicum of computer savvy, especially compared to you young "geeks" and "nerds" out there.  I had to learn how to design and build a website completely from scratch.  I had no idea how to do this.  I taught myself by studying websites, reading tutorials, watching videos, and asking questions.  I downloaded KompoZer, the free web design program, and figured out how to publish my website.  I have done the best I can.  I am my own "webmaster."  So, please forgive me for my unsophisticated website.

Also, I absolutely assure everyone that I have done nothing to compromise the safety of this website or the PDF download of my free ebook.  I do not have the faintest idea how to construct or insert viruses, worms, spyware, adware, spams, popups, cookies, phishing, or any other scams.  I monitor this website and download my ebook on a regular basis to make sure there are no problems.  

      Click on the navigation bar headings at the bottom of the page to see an Overview of ZAPPED BY PROZAC, read About Me as the author, and Download my Free Ebook.  I can be contacted at the following email address:

B. R. Madison

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